My bro is the coolest
3 February 2002 ~ Sunday
I keep getting complete mood swings, one minute I'm really happy, singing, thinking about how my bro is coming up to see me at the end of the month, just... being how I used to be. Then the next minute I'm like freaking out about my exams, about everything... {thank you bro, even my mother knew the answer!}
Steve made me realise that I'm stronger than I think, I mean, I coped with some fucked up stuff on my own, which is strange cos I really can't cope with simple things...
I realised that I've always thought I needed a boyfriend to be strong, I don't. I need a boyfriend... I was going to say I need a boyfriend to feel loved, but I just realised that I don't - my friends love me, and that's all that matters.
I realised that there's some people I thought I wanted in my life, but it's just easier if they're not.
I realised that I'm completely obsessed with Three Doors Down - I can't stop singing Be Like That and Smack. And that no matter how much the Silverchair album depresses me, I can't stop singing it.
That reminds me... if I get the Dangermouse song stuck in my head tomorrow, someone watch out Steve is going to die!
I love my bro, and as long as he's happy and keeps Clem away from me, I'm happy!
Oh dear, I just put loads of hot chocolate, loads of sugar and not enough water to dilute it in a cup and drank it... I'm just a tiny bit hyper..
Lies! It's all lies! She's completely hyper! She's grinning like a maniac and pulling at my hair! Someone help me!!
How come I start to say something, but never actually finish it? Does anyone else notice that? Oh well...
I think I should talk to some people, need to explain a few things... oh yeah, and I managed to jinx myself again, but for some reason, I don't mind... JL decided to appear again... after me saying I hadn't seen him for ages.
I just laughed, I couldn't do anything else, it was after I'd bumped into AN for the second time in a day. It was actually good to see both of them... things aren't as bad as I thought they were. I'm in a kind of 'I want to be friends with everyone' kind of mood.
Hey bro, you remember L and G right? G's been hassling me to get Blink albums... how do you say fuck off in a nice way?! Nah, G is cool, I think you'd like him bro, it's hard not to like him!
Oh god! That reminds me! I need to ask someone something, like, it's kinda important but I'm kinda scared to ask, incase they say no and incase things change and then I can't... but... hmmm... I'll wait for a bit, see what happens..
Sorry, that made sense to me, and that's what's important cos it's my diary. So there. OI!
*sighs* Yeah, ok, it's mine and Arnold's diary. Thank you Miss Trish.